Today, rainy day, i met up with Hana and we went to school together, she's staying with her aunt who lives opposite my block and it's very cool cause this was the 1st time we ever went to school today. She lives in Boon Lay... Bumped into her after a long bloody day of school and Maya aka Mrs Tom Welling. They were racking their brains over Accounts. As I join them, a familiar feeling hit. We are together again, the old classmates from COS are together again. It has been so long and i really mean long. Everyone's doing their own stuffs, living a whole new different life outside school. That's why we are thinking a little reunion, like we did during the few last days together. Hanging out at East Coast and staying the night. I miss them already. We chilled at Northpoint and Hana's was telling how she is the jerks/bastards magnet. All she got is a bunch of broken hearts and she's really tired of it...she kept opening her heart to the wrong guy or guys. Right now, she's coming up with a list of how-can-i-break-his-heart-so-bad-he's-gotten-regret-giving-me-up. It's for her current boyfriend. Then she shared with me about this guy who had her heart and apparently hopes that Hana will go back to him..i told her to give it a try. Maybe he ain't as bad...Good, we don't have to kill anyone.

Little thing happened in school, little but surprisely loud and what-the-hell-did-that-come-from kinda of feeling when Mrs. Lee, the PR lecturer picked up names and wanted them to come in front because they were talking, distracting and obstructing her lesson. As if her lesson is ongoing or interesting. Anyway, one of them refused because she thought she didn't talk and therefore should not be picked up and be ordered to be in the front. And of course, Mrs. Lee was furious, talking about how students are king and how teachers are pieces of shit to be trampled up. It was either to leave her lecture or oblige. Torn? Totally. Tried a 'friendly' conversation and lecturer got so pissed, lesson's off and we got locked out from the class. It's like dejá vu, we got ousted out from the same class by another lecturer(JT) the other day. Angrier than this one. I don't know what with lecturers now. I admitted we are really distracting and rude at times but we wanted to study too. And they are not teaching. Doesn't sound right, does it? Students wanna learn but Lecturers want to bail. I don't know..we'll see what happen. We're leaving next April anyway..and Mrs. Yeo confessed how she's gotten miss us..Oh..how sweet. We'll miss her too.

Lunch. Talked about the most talk about person: Alvina. Rumors and probably truth implied that she might be falling for the other side and some girl from an all-girls school is currently showing her the ropes. I was upset, i don't know why...just felt that something is terribly wrong and i'm part of that wrong and wanted to i don't know, explain? Like there's any explanation to it all. If a girl goes with a butch, it's a guy for her at the end of the day. And a person DOES NOT just become homosexual..it's always something that's hurtful or crucial or devastating that would take someone to the other side. Like a realization of who you really are and want. But of course, some people wanted to have a taste of what's its like but eventually they are gotten be in the 'normal' league again and it wouldn't really make no difference. I don't know how to say this, i don't wanna be either defensive or offensive, you know. There's nothing there for me to argue or defend for. Is it always so hard? Always having to figure about what Life is? If Relationship and Life have an upside, i hell never encountered it.