Aftermath of a very dragging and smoky model competition at Macpherson ITE, 15 Oct 2005. God i thought i could die in there! I was tired and as sick as the word sick is. What with sore throat, headache, flu and mild cough. I'm getting sick too easily these days. Gotten remember to drink enough H2O. The modelling thing was called Mr and Miss ITE, involved 5 campuses, Macpherson being the host campus and god, they suck. The show was supposed to start from 5.30 but it started at 7, with most people's bored and dying to get out. They were killing the enthusiasism in people. And god, did i mention the music?

Talked with D, she knows she talk stupid sometimes, clinging onto unimportant and senseless topics she just couldn't seem to understand/get over. As usual, i had to be patient with her. And then after that, she would sms me and tell me how ridiculous she has been the night before. And then we were talking about this trip with her co-workers to Singapore. I'm not sure if they are really coming. I'm kinda nervous. I mean, i'm gotten see her in person. And because we needed to cut down on the nervousness, she suggested we start talking on the phone..again,i'm nervous, i don't know. It's just nerve-wrecking. I mean, yeah, we talked once in the phone completed with poor reception and robotic kind of Q & A..she actually asked about school and the weather. I know that we are nervous to a point where we probably stop thinking and start making words that we don't understand and i wanna change that. It's only fair that we are comfortable with each other. She wants to call me after the exams...

Exams. EVM. My mum took me to this fortune teller in Johor some months back. She told me i had to really focus on my studies to get the usual good grades. And i realized now how true her words are. I mean, i don't usually believe in stuff like that because i don't think we should know stuffs like that unless they are truly meant for us, you know, like the Heaven's secrets or something. Anyway, i got back to school to a brilliant lady who's my form teacher plus other not-so-fun modules..my grades could really take the fall. I'm unwilling to give up on the stupid modules with my life being more interesting and plus, I was worried that i couldn't get the As i needed for poly and personal satisfaction and i was freaking out and still am freaking out when i couldn't memorize any of my notes! There are a million other things i wanted to do instead of notes and you don't know how wrong it felt in my guts. So i tried to do the notes for the first paper, Events Management and i think i got most of the key points in my brain...God Blesses and I'll pull through. I'm off to my notes now!

But before that, this lovely song lifted up my spirits a little:

"She's walking there alone
No one by her side
She manages to fight the tears but
The pain inside
She can't hide
And all the tears she's cried
The moment she closes her eyes she starts
Thinking of you
The dreams that she had one time
Have gone away
Will they ever come true?
All she needs is… all she needs is you
And she wishes today
Was one year ago
When you cared so much for her
And loved her so
Not a doubt in her mind that it would still be you
Cause the love that you shared… it was true
You never thought about it,
What you made her feel
You promised you'd stay together,
But the hope she once had… so unreal
All she needs is… all she needs is you
And she wishes today
Was one year ago
When you cared so much for her
And loved her so
Not a doubt in her mind that it would still be you
Cause the love that you shared… it was true"

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