L'Expérience de Survivant

Yesterday was Vincent's 21st birthday party at Changi and all of us went. Yeah, it's the big 21. There were a lot of people whom we didn't know. The only people whom we could probably recognized were people from ISN. Everyone else was weird. So we went to the beach and I got pushed down the water. And of course, we had eggs and flour. Only not. The day was kinda ruined...with the long traveling time and the girlfriend being unhappy or maybe protective of her boyfriend whom we would have mistaken as her husband plus we were starved and Starved translated to Annoyance. I mean we understand that things have changed since NITEC. We used to just speak what's on our mind without giving much thoughts and how that has to go now...things are different with a girlfriend around, someone whom you care a great deal for and wanna protect at all costs. I totally get it but of course, we weren't that happy about it at first..but no one holds grudges and we will adapt to the changes and looking at the bright side, it could be a Happily Ever After for them. It's like the Engagement Party in disguise last night with the cake san Marriage. Haha!

Waited for Andrew to turn up last night..he had Dance Club something going on and he kinda aligned at the wrong bus stop because according to him, I was rushing him and he made a wrong judgement therefore aligning several bus stops away. I hanged out with him in the chatlet room while he showered and I read newspapers. We actually wanted to watch the DVD he brought but his friends came in and wanted to play games so we hanged out with his ISN classmates at the pit and we were talking and everything. They are pretty funny and pretty nice too. So it was good I stayed over a while longer while Mary and gang went home. Eventually my dad came to pick us ('drew and me) up around 12.40 and we went home..Before we leave, Vincent's sister asked if we're a couple and I told her "No,we're more like strangers that happened to be living in Yishun and that my dad is picking him up and so forth." and that made everyone laughed which is good cause I wanna make it funny. And Drew pretended to be hurt and he said "You could have just told them we're friends!" And I laughed.

Drew's like the first guy who I am comfortable with, you know..cause that hardly happens. I met him while on the horrible attachment and I found that I could hang out with him pretty well. I mean, I don't really know him that well yet but we seemed comfortable. He's a Christian and he strongly believes that God will lead him to his wife and so forth...I admired his faith in God when everything around us is wrong and screwed. Anyway, he tried to talk me out of being gay and all that..and I listened to him..but no one knows what will happen...

Maybe that's why we're so cool. He probably has no qualms about me being a girl or someone who needed protection and stuff cause i think he thinks just because i'm gay, I'm just like another guy...and we could be open about things..I know the staying in the room alone with him sounded kinda weird but I swear we were joking when he said he would give me his 'first night' and I pretended to undress.

Ok, this is one of the songs that got me all ripped out inside and here it is...

"Another year older
A little bit stronger
A little bit wiser than?
A year ago today
Looking over my shoulder
I was so much younger then
I can't believe what happened
A year ago today
And I just can't forget about it
It wouldn't mean a thing
You went away
A year ago today
Another year gone by
Oh the tears have run dry
Life seemed so unkind
A year ago today
And I just can't understand it
And I don't think I ever will
You went away
A year ago today
And how many times have I questioned myself
What more could I do
And how many times did I fool myself
Over you oh yeah
You've gotta pick yourself up,
Take another look
And dust yourself off cause life's not too good,
I'll say it to myself and I'll say it again
Love will never end
And though we're so far apart
You're forever in my heart
Another year older
A little bit stronger
On this anniversary
You're watching over me
You went away
A year ago today
You ran away
A year ago today"