Ok..I know I've not been updating my blog so here I am. Received my cheque for $480 finally, was happy cause I'm out of the I'm-always-broke club for at least several months, I hope. Right now, Fizah's my treasurer and I'm supposed to give her 5 bucks everyday so at the end of 20 days, I would have 100 bucks, to cover my DVDs..Totally on the search looking for the best bargain now. Located several places but have yet been there. Went to the ice skating rink in Jurong..where I remembered I hurt my head real bad when I fell..the tiny phobia still lingers..but I tell myself to be brave and that there's nothing I cannot do and I actually did not fall today. I was proud of myself. Went to IMM, shopped a while...real tired, took pictures, overall it was fun.

I'm been searching deep down in my soul, wondering what could come out of this life. Of course, I don't know yet. Plus the ever confusing relationship with her. I don't know, every time I saw a couple or when i needed company, i would always think of her or when I saw something nice, I would like her to be here so we could share, you know, stuffs..I was the one who called it quits in the first place and right now, I should be more comfortable with where we are now but I'm not exactly so. I can't be sure if I love her, like I really really want her to be my girlfriend and I can't talk about it with her cause that would bring back old memories and triggers for more unnecessary arguments which i have had before. I miss her, and think about her most of the time, and she thinks about me most of the time, but she's so faraway and it seems to be so unrealistic..she's there and i'm here and we're not together. How can I be sure of my feelings for her? I don't wanna hurt her but I don't have the answers either.

For the past few weeks, been hanging out with Fizah and Yanti after school..which is fun, funny and the bond is so much stronger now. Had a misunderstanding with Yanti the other day regarding a stupid Marketing Project but now we're cool.